Am I still in love with my blogger friend…...

Continued from my previous post……yes I was annoyed, agitated, and moreover a bit disappointed that even after my numerous requests, my parents went along and advertised my return and their eagerness to get me married…

All I wanted was a quiet holiday, a long awaited break, a good time, to rejuvenate, to energise, to make me return to where I was back in July 06……I am sure I will, but these unwanted barriers will slow me down. I have higher planes to cover, higher ambitions to achieve.

Unfortunately, I couldn’t let met my parents down, went along with their plans and ideas and suffered to see them sulk, when questioned by their counterparts about the logistics of ‘Hotel Management’!! Will I ever rewind time and accept the engineering course I obtained through the state entrance board…..no, it is a thumping NO…. I am what I am….and I am proud of what I am…..i wont change it for the world…..After all how many Deputy General Manager’s will you find in a renowned Hotel Chain in Europe with an Indian ethnicity…….

But do I have a more serious issue…an underlying problem….i hope you still remember how I became a blogger….the blogger who inspired me to write again….Anagha…am I still in love with her…….

I analysed the whole situation, I tried to convince myself it is infatuation…..but for a thirty one year old an attraction/infatuation will last days…maximum weeks…not four months!!! Yes I still think about Anagha….even when I met the girls whom my parents wanted me to meet….I was looking for traits…Anagha has…..I found none…My Anagha is unique…

I still wake up thinking of my pearl
I sleep to dream about her
I wake up to know, that I still can dream
I find comfort knowing that she is just a thought away

I have planned a trip to where Anagha works…..my old City…where I learned the basics of my job….few of my good old friends are still there….some have their kids…whom I haven’t seen yet…yes I want to see them….see my good old friends…do the things we used to do a long time back….8 years …..that’s how long I have left that city…..every corner brings me memories….this time….its more special……

I might get to see this gem….maybe in a shopping complex….maybe in a restaurant…..maybe at the bus stop….maybe at the bookshop…maybe……..

What if I see her, will I be courageous enough to say hello….will she reciprocate my feelings…..I not know….. but for now…..just the thought that I will be treading the same path, smelling the same air, I will be near my sweetest……that thought is more than enough to drive me…..